amor.

"so maybe it's true, that i can't live without you.
and maybe two is better than one...
and you've already got me coming undone." -"two is better than one" by boys like girls


are we seriously believing this stuff?
who are we kidding?

"i can't live without you."
i don't really have a good word that's not too harsh, so -- fiddlesticks.

maybe that's true for you, but not for me.
i may put Him on the backburner at times,
but God is the only one i can't live without. and i mean that completely literally.
because without His grace and salvation, i would spend life after death in hell, completely separated from Him.

and you're telling me that really it's some guy that i can't live without?
i don't think so.
yeah, i'll get married someday, and obviously he'll be very important to me,
but i could live and survive without him.

maybe i don't know what i'm talking about.
i mean, after all, i'm not married.. i haven't ever been broken up with.. i haven't lost someone like that who's that special in my life.

but i kind've don't care. i think it's important for others at least to know the truth, and what i'm learning right now: if we had no one to call a friend or family member on the planet, God would be enough.
at least, He SHOULD be enough. that's our struggle.
yes, our struggle.
just because i can recognize that a relationship won't ever be significant enough to be something i can't live without, doesn't mean that i don't care what others think or just enjoy life without trying to "get in good" with people.
we like to be accepted. it's part of our human nature.
so that's what i do. i pay too much attention to people, and their petty ways,
instead of focusing on what God has to say and what He thinks about me.

that's what we shouldn't be able to live without.
not a "significant other" or what we know as love.
and i'm just as guilty as anyone else in believing the lie.